I keep being told that I am too picky when it comes to finding a woman that I want to spend my time with.  I personally think that is a bit insulting.  I don’t think so.  I think I know what I am worth, I know that the woman who GETS to be with me is getting one hell of a man.

No, I won’t be pushed around and controlled by a woman.  And YES I expect a woman to be loyal to me, and not play games involving other men.  But if I am with a woman who treats me right, she will get the same in return.  I am extremely loyal, and I will do anything for the people that I love.

So what.. the women I have been with in the past didn’t feel that they got what they needed from me, that’s because they didn’t want me and only me.  And it’s not hard to tell when a woman is looking for attention from other men, or when she is trying to decide between you and another man.

I have made the mistake of giving myself fully to each of those women too early in the relationship, and then after they made it clear that I wasn’t the only man they needed I stayed and tried to figure out how to make it work.  The truth is that it can’t work with someone like that.  They will never be happy with what they have, and will continue to look for more.  They might be content for a while but sooner or later they will find reasons why what they have is not good enough and try to find something better.

I have learned more about life and relationships this year than I have in all of my adult life put together before this year.  I have learned a lot about the mistakes that I have made, and know how to not make those mistakes again.

I have been told that my blogs are ‘bitter and angry’.  Ok, well.. I agree, for the most part they are.  But there is reason for that..  because I was bitter and angry throughout the majority of this year.  I think I had good reason to be.  Besides, if my blogs weren’t written the way they are they would be boring.  I mean if I came on here and posted how great my life is, and that we should all dance around and twirl umbrellas because life is wonderful, you guys would get sick of it.

On the flip side, I’m sure the darkness in most of my blogs is off putting, so I have decided to add something a little light and fluffy into each one from now on.  I’ve already done that in this one… but now I’ve gotten off topic, so I need to get back to the point.

My point is this.. I honestly believe that the women who left me and chose to be with someone else over me have made huge mistakes that will make thier lives less fulfilling than they otherwise could have been.  And I don’t think that this qualifies as an egotistical statement either.  It is just the fact that I think I am worth a lot.  And I think that the woman who I find that makes me happy and is LOYAL to me, will get someone great in return.  And anyone else isn’t worth my time.

So, maybe some see it as me being too picky, but I don’t see it that way.  I just see that I want value back equal to that which I am capable of giving, because if I am not given that value I will not give back the full value that I am capable of and then I am cheating myself out of really being happy.  And.. happiness is the ultimate goal.  It’s what everyone is really in search of.  People just want to be happy.  Me too.. And I want large doses of it.. I’m tired of settling for the small ones.