Dad says life goes in cycles, there are the good cycles and the bad cycles. It’s pretty obvious that I am in a bad cycle…. And it just keeps getting worse and worse. I guess the good news is that if dad is right then at some point it will start getting better.
Sometimes you lose. It’s a fact of life. You are going to lose.. some more than others. But everyone loses. Lately I’ve been losing a lot. But as Bill Parcells says “You learn a lot more from a loss than you do from a win”. So I guess I should be learning a lot right now. I hope I am.
When you lose you can either quit, or you can learn from it and try again. Well tonight I felt like a boxer who got his ass beat for 12 rounds and then finally got knocked out with just under a minute left in the fight. I’m still laying on the canvas right now, and I’m thinking that I just got my ass beat twice in a row. So now the question is, when I finally get up do I fight again?
I had my reign as the champion. I lost the title.. And now, I have to take some time to ask myself if I am willing to do what it takes and go through more beatings to be the champion again? And I’m not sure. But like I said.. I’m still laying on the canvas.. I haven’t even gotten up yet.
When I get up.. I’ll take some time to decide what I want to do next, and who knows.. maybe I’ll retire. Or maybe just take a short break. Or maybe I will decide that with a little training I’ll be ready to get right back in that ring. All I know is that when you lose.. and when it’s a really bad defeat, you definately need some time to think about what is next.
I know this blog isn’t like some of my other ones. It’s written totally from where I stand, and doesn’t really give any advice.. It just states where I am, and what has and is happening to me. I’m not even sure if what I have wrote makes any sense.. but I feel just a little bit better now that I have wrote it.
I’m just going to lay here on the canvas for a while though….
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