But yet, you still feel alone?  Maybe you turned to god, but chances are you found out that god while good at helping with many things like fear, and courage, is pretty pathetic when it comes to fixing that ALONE feeling.

Some people haven’t ever experienced what I am talking about.  Those people think they have because everyone thinks they have but most haven’t.  Only SOME have.  If you are one of them that REALLY has, then you know what I am talking about.

If you are one of those people and are going through it now, then I feel for you.  But the sad thing is that there is nothing that I or anyone else can do about it. I’ve finally realized that.  Nobody can fix it.

If you are one of those people who have that feeling you know that it can destroy your life.  It can cause you to do things that you would never have done if you didn’t feel alone.

Most of the people who were heroes in war probably felt ALONE.  A man who can stand and look his enemy in the eye through his sites and pull the trigger, standing up listening to the cracks of the bullets flying by him and not caring about anything except killing that SOB that is shooting at his friends.  That is a man who has that feeling of being alone.

I said nobody can fix it…  I meant nobody..Except you.

You have to go out there and find someone, or maybe even more than one person who takes away that feeling of being ALONE.  I’m sure that is what my (x)-wife has done, and is doing.  She is looking for people to take that feeling away, one that she probably had, and might still have, I don’t know, but I guess I can’t blame her for wanting that.

This blog is of course about me.. It may be about you too, but I’m writing it so it is about me.  I am ALONE.  Don;t get me wrong I have friends.  I have kids who love me and are with me, I have a mother who cares about me very much.  But I feel alone.  I started feeling that way in high school.  And although at times being married I didn’t feel ALONE, the feeling was still there the majority of the time.

I beleive that there are people out there who I could be with that would take that feeling away.  I beleive there are people EVERYONE could be with that would take the feeling away.

I may be wrong.. And I may be doomed, but I don’t think I am.  I think it’s just about looking and finding.  And so that is what I will do.. until This feeling goes away, or until my children don’t need me anymore.